like, what did you say?

Earlier this week, I asked Aaron what is meant by the saying, “the shit hit the fan”.  I feel as though I am finding out for myself.

Talked to my mom tonight, and she told me to get ready to come home within the next couple of days because my granny’s kidneys are failing and her health is rapidly declining.

I got a job offer.  Which is good, but troublesome.  They changed the offer up on me today from 40 hours on the weekends, to Mon-Fri 2pm-10pm.  Which is still 40 hours.  BLEH!  I’m just not sure what to do.  Do I stay here?  Do I go to Midland?  My heart is here.  My life that I have been building over the last 2 years is here.  The navigators are here, and I love being a part of the ministry.  It has become more and more evident to me how much I really love this place- the town, the school, the ministry, the people.  The more I think about going to Midland for the next 8 months- the more I realize how much I like how things are going here.  If I take this job, I will have to work on christmas and christmas eve- which absolutely crushes me.  I wouldn’t get to be with my family and I hate that.  I want to see this with wisdom.  What does it mean for the Lord to close and open doors?

I haven’t heard from the family in Austria since last thursday.  They said they would email me by the 14th to give me their final answer.  Not sure what I will do if they send a nay my way.  I would love some clarity. some direction.  a conduit to use my ideas and energy.

I’m flying through a cloud of indecision and misdirection- Hopefully I’ll come out the other side soon.